{"id":69,"date":"2006-10-28T17:47:41","date_gmt":"2006-10-29T00:47:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/?p=69"},"modified":"2008-01-22T11:38:20","modified_gmt":"2008-01-22T18:38:20","slug":"decisions-decisions","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/2006\/10\/28\/decisions-decisions\/","title":{"rendered":"decisions, decisions."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I have a hard time saying no.<\/p>\n<p>I have this tendency, if someone wants me, to feel that I do (or should) want them in return. This shows up in stark relief at several points in my history &#8211; once in an astonishingly brief semi-dating relationship, circa 1998. Then, last month I was approached by an IT hardware\/software company who wanted me to contract for a short while and move into full time. What a great opportunity! I should snap it up, right?<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m great at agonizing. Last night I agonized over whether to order a BLT with soup or a burger with mushrooms plus home fries. (Waiters must hate me.) Then I agonized over what coffee-shop treat to get. (My husband gets impatient with me.) When I&#8217;m facing a big decision, the ability to make small ones just flies out the window.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m choosing: project variety, consumer-oriented products, public exposure for my work, schedule flexibility, portfolio building, more free time, a less career-oriented future.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m passing up: responsibility for and ground-up redesign of an entire IT-oriented software UI, a gain in usability engineering\/user-centered design experience, full-time schedule, security, and benefits.<\/p>\n<p>This would probably have turned out very differently if I was a man, a breadwinner, a career goal-oriented type. As it is, perhaps my next full-time, long-term job will be as a mom (someday) &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have a hard time saying no. I have this tendency, if someone wants me, to feel that I do <span class=\"more-text\">&hellip;<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[14],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sparkledesign.net\/fidget\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}